With each class awareness during performance has gradually become more fully available to me. Prior to last week the segment of the flight where I was instructed to bring legs into first position or pull over the bar was a black hole to me. While I could hear the direction of the instructor and then feel myself coming into 1st position, I was unaware of myself between these 2 moments. I had no idea which muscles were engaging to bring my legs up or how I did it. I uncovered awareness of this part of flight while flying last week. Finally I was able to tune into the breath and the movements that bring my legs to the bar at the apex of the swing. I could feel almost the whole range of movements from hanging to 1st position. Wow! This was a big change for me.
In music performing I have also experienced black holes in my awareness. I now have a new experience to help me uncover awareness clarity as I play. The continuum of learning continues.